I don't think I've ever been so disappointed in myself in school as this semester. a C in illustration? I was doing so well in the beginning, my first two projects got a 10/10 and 8/10 respectively... but it just slid downhill from there. I couldn't/ wouldn't/ DIDN'T keep up with the workload. It should've been my favorite class. It was, actually. I liked working on projects in that class more than in Yu Ji's and in Rick's. I half-half-assed everything in Rick's class pretty much, because I'm a snob and pretty much am sure that I know 100% more about Photoshop and Illustrator than any of those art ed kids, and didn't put my best foot forward. And got an A. C in illustration, A in art ed, is this a sign of which direction to go? Then why does it feel so grim?
Both Yu Ji and Chawla said that it's not about the skill level, obviously I can produce quality work. But I don't. Being lazy gets you nowhere in this industry (or any other, for that matter). Both of them gave me a C. Is this what I needed to step up my game? I don't know. I hope so. Six classes next semester though, this shit's tough.
I'm going to make up for whatever my "portfolio" lacks by drawing and painting this summer. I need to get a move on.
A in sex ed and A in art ed, two totally dumb classes. Cake classes, safety nets, whatever. I don't feel happy for receiving these A's. I just feel a little relieved for my poor GPA, but no satisfaction.
edit: I got a B in Mesoamerican Art Hist. I actually did work for this class, went to every class and studied and read. I didn't do all of the necessary work, but I did the work. I am a straight B student this semester, one step down from last semester (B B B B... A. lol). OHBOYOHBOYZ.