I'm walking this Spring, finally. And my birthday is in 5 days!
I'll be turning 23.
Nobody likes you when you're 23, as the song goes. So Russell left.
Fuck it, I'm gonna have a good fucking time. Moving on, moving on. April will be a good month because I'm going to make it so.
We've many years ahead to fall in line, why would you wish that on me? I never wanna act my age.
What's my age again?
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Monday, April 9, 2012
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
I think I did pretty well this fall semester! Granted, I didn't have work to go to so that's how it should be. 3 A's and 2 B's, woohoo! I'm sad I couldn't have turned my Art Hist B into an A for once, jUST ONCE! I was sooo close this time. Karen Kleinfelder is the best at what she does.
Russell's parents got me a stocking chock full of goodies :3 they're so cute. And he got me blackberry fruits taped to a box! He's so silly. I love it.
I am running out of money so I should probably devise that plan soon. I have a partner, I have motivation. I just need a push in that direction!
a hapa... maybe one day
Russell's parents got me a stocking chock full of goodies :3 they're so cute. And he got me blackberry fruits taped to a box! He's so silly. I love it.
I am running out of money so I should probably devise that plan soon. I have a partner, I have motivation. I just need a push in that direction!
a hapa... maybe one day
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
time and change
A year is a short amount of time...
So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.
On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...
But so much can happen in a year, you know.
I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.
I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.
A year is a long time.
So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.
On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...
But so much can happen in a year, you know.
I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.
I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.
A year is a long time.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
sleepless
i'm getting antsy, and i can't sleep.
i feel really broke, it's already end of june, only two months left to make up tuition. what am i doing?
i should turn off my computer now. i should go to bed, there's no one to talk to anyway. wish i had a certain body next to me tonight. wish the mountains had reception! wish i wasn't on constant alert for notifications.
this world, this world we live in, it's not good for us anymore.
i feel really broke, it's already end of june, only two months left to make up tuition. what am i doing?
i should turn off my computer now. i should go to bed, there's no one to talk to anyway. wish i had a certain body next to me tonight. wish the mountains had reception! wish i wasn't on constant alert for notifications.
this world, this world we live in, it's not good for us anymore.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
twenty-two
I went to school on my birthday, I had no choice =( and ended up staying over an hour after class for my stupid group work stuff. I kinda dilly daddled after that and saw the Illustration Show briefly, then finally walked to my car. I turned the corner and found red carnations and a Happy Birthday balloon on my windshield. <3
I worked that night even though I had asked for it off! But it was okay because my coworkers wrote me a card and Mona baked me Reese's Fastbreak CUPCAKES! They were delicious. And Rus was working too =)
In the lunchroom, he gave me a present and a card and said that I could only open one. I asked, between the gift and the card? No, the gift was more than one inside the first wrapping. He said I could only unwrap one today, and another tomorrow, and the last the day after; and that I will be tantalized to open both. So I said "Okay!" and opened the box. The moment I untaped it I saw two smaller boxes inside wrapped as well and I knew I just used one "unwrap permit" today. DANG! This guy's good. I shook the two boxes to guess what was inside and freaked him out. Haha! I guessed it was fragile and therefore must be glass! And kinda big, but flat, because of the box's dimensions. All he said to everything was "maybe!"
That night I read the card and it had some cheesey Hallmark poem, and he wrote, "Happy birthday Anh! Dinner Saturday night?" =)
The next day I unwrapped one package and found a very familiarly shaped box. I opened it to find (gasp!) an opalite spiral! How! What! Where when why! So this is why I'd be tortured about opening the second box! A pair of opalite spirals, he really knows me!
Saturday I opened the second box and tried them on. They're just gorgeous. That night, he took me out to dinner at Tantalum and it was very delicious and fancy. Our main dishes were garnered with an orchid flower each, which I proceeded to eat a petal off mine. It was kinda tasty! Haha. He also got me another bouquet of carnations, and his parents gave me a birthday card too! We took a walk after dinner and spent the rest of the night with each other.
You're amazing.
I worked that night even though I had asked for it off! But it was okay because my coworkers wrote me a card and Mona baked me Reese's Fastbreak CUPCAKES! They were delicious. And Rus was working too =)
In the lunchroom, he gave me a present and a card and said that I could only open one. I asked, between the gift and the card? No, the gift was more than one inside the first wrapping. He said I could only unwrap one today, and another tomorrow, and the last the day after; and that I will be tantalized to open both. So I said "Okay!" and opened the box. The moment I untaped it I saw two smaller boxes inside wrapped as well and I knew I just used one "unwrap permit" today. DANG! This guy's good. I shook the two boxes to guess what was inside and freaked him out. Haha! I guessed it was fragile and therefore must be glass! And kinda big, but flat, because of the box's dimensions. All he said to everything was "maybe!"
That night I read the card and it had some cheesey Hallmark poem, and he wrote, "Happy birthday Anh! Dinner Saturday night?" =)
The next day I unwrapped one package and found a very familiarly shaped box. I opened it to find (gasp!) an opalite spiral! How! What! Where when why! So this is why I'd be tortured about opening the second box! A pair of opalite spirals, he really knows me!
Saturday I opened the second box and tried them on. They're just gorgeous. That night, he took me out to dinner at Tantalum and it was very delicious and fancy. Our main dishes were garnered with an orchid flower each, which I proceeded to eat a petal off mine. It was kinda tasty! Haha. He also got me another bouquet of carnations, and his parents gave me a birthday card too! We took a walk after dinner and spent the rest of the night with each other.
You're amazing.
Friday, December 31, 2010
2010 Reflections
It's a Friday night, and New Year's Eve is soon arriving.
I have a couple of hours of stillness before I head out with the work crew to celebrate, let me reflect a little on 2010 and what has come and gone while listening to John Mayer's 'Slow Dancing in a Burning Room.'
Relationships
I spent most of 2010 paired with Jake. I don't regret having been with him, and I don't regret having ended it. Every time I leave a relationship I learn a little more about who I am and what I want, what I need from my partner, what I need in the relationship and secured for the future.
From this relationship, I've learned that getting involved with someone romantically means getting involved with their family as well, it's inevitable. And though my partner's personality or lifestyle may not be totally and completely derived from his family, he will always have been influenced by them somehow. I've also learned that what they do now gives me a pretty good idea of what they will be doing in the future. It's rare for anyone's life to completely change, or even make a good turnaround. Usually, they will just follow the path they've already set for themselves some years ago. I've learned from past relationships that I don't want a partner too attached and clingy, who's a bad kisser, and is self-belittling; someone who gives all his heart from the start without knowing what he's headed for, too serious about life, and awkwardly nice; a boy who does not grow up, only wants to have fun, will go out of his way to make his fun, and is treated as a boy by his family with these reasons so obvious to me, yet he could not see; one who has a self-image problem, and doesn't take enough initiative to change his lifestyle, who loves love too much... the list goes on, and will go on as long as I know who I am and what I want.
But enough with the relationship rant, teeehee.
Some fun things that have happened recently...
1) I wore my giant 6g nose ring to Kula with Phuong, and Sushiboy struck up conversation with me about it, and about his teeny 14g one haha. Phuong left him my number but he was on break, as we saw walking out the place, and didn't get it... THANKFULLY, LISA AND PHUONG WENT TO KULA THE VERY NEXT DAY and Lisa brought me up. He asked for my name and Lisa left him my number again at the table. Too bad I've not heard from him, he seemed cute, although I can't say for sure what he looked like anymore :(
2) I met Jamie last semester, and she's such a cool chick. She invited me to her Thanksgiving kickback, I went by myself and was pretty intimidated at first but ended up making a few friends. I went to lunch with one, DM, and though I thought he was interesting at first I no longer think so. I still owe a lunch date with DB so I will try to carry that out, but I think their lifestyles are real turn-offs. Maybe I'm just not into the richer guys who have free time to do pot. I don't have anything against them for doing it, and hearing them talk about it is interesting somewhat, but that's not what I want for myself..
3) I've been seeing straight-edge instead. I thought the Christmas wrapping was just about the best thing ever. He's definitely getting to me lol.
Work
I'm still working at Walgreens with everyone who originally started at this store. Jeanette was let go some time ago, I'm not sure if this was in the past year. Not a great loss at all, tbh lolol. Losing John was rather unfortunate though. I feel like, with the way I card smokers, I might get caught in their stupid traps too. :/
In addition to Walgreens I also work as a graphic designer! I think this has been the most exciting thing to happen to me in a long long time. It happened so suddenly, too!
Apparently, Chi Ti and Burroughs were having brunch at nearby tables when Burroughs overheard Chi Ti mention that she knows someone who could design her Bicyclist Club's shirts. Burroughs, having been looking for new designers for her small business, came over to the cyclist table and gave Chi Ti her card.
I've been working for her ever since, making whatever small businesses come to her for: business cards, banners, flyers, pamphlets, magnets... I also work on her personal line of pet-themed collectibles. She's a sweet lady, and giving me a raise soon! I'm excited for what 's in store for me =)
School
I didn't do so hot last semester, I got almost all B's save one A and one D!!! It was a Carlos class, sigh. I got an A in enameling though! I thoroughly enjoyed Susanna's class, and hope to take at least one more metals class while I'm still here.
I've decided to go through with the BFA program. I'm gonna work on my portfolio given the chance, and apply for the program hopefully by next year. I hope to graduate in two years, with two degrees. I'm excited and anxious for the future! Teacher? Illustrator? Designer? No one knows.
Memorables
Over the summer I worked with a group of art students and community service volunteers on a mural in Stanton. It was a fairly large wall, standing at 14 feet tall and 60 feet wide. I worked on it with Jake, too, and so his name will be along mine on the wall for as long as the painting stands. It looks adorable, I love the colors and the message. I drew all the people! =)
I've picked up an interest in ceramics and fabrics, LOL. I want yarn now more than ever, and want to learn foreals how to make stuff! I don't really wanna do more ceramics but I keep an eye out for unique ceramic things, like this adorable set of half-cups that form one mug together. It looks like it was made cheap, but I got it at Goodwill for cheap anyway lol, and it's just so adorable!
I love hanging out with Phuong Lisa and Tuan. Of course Tuan is not usually here, so we 3 girls tend to have our own fun most of the time. We all have very different goals for the future and schedules but make it all work to get that coffee and tea, and those damn pastries. 85C adventures, errands, The Office, whatever it may be, I love it all. I love my friends!
I've stopped stretching my lobes for a bit, the cold weather had been really harsh on them. While they heal and stay content at 0g, I've been working on my septum piercing instead. I'm at 4g now, and not looking to stop any time soon. I'd like to reach at least 0g there. I'm contemplating what other piercing to get... but I guess I will know in 2011 8)
I have a couple of hours of stillness before I head out with the work crew to celebrate, let me reflect a little on 2010 and what has come and gone while listening to John Mayer's 'Slow Dancing in a Burning Room.'
Relationships
I spent most of 2010 paired with Jake. I don't regret having been with him, and I don't regret having ended it. Every time I leave a relationship I learn a little more about who I am and what I want, what I need from my partner, what I need in the relationship and secured for the future.
From this relationship, I've learned that getting involved with someone romantically means getting involved with their family as well, it's inevitable. And though my partner's personality or lifestyle may not be totally and completely derived from his family, he will always have been influenced by them somehow. I've also learned that what they do now gives me a pretty good idea of what they will be doing in the future. It's rare for anyone's life to completely change, or even make a good turnaround. Usually, they will just follow the path they've already set for themselves some years ago. I've learned from past relationships that I don't want a partner too attached and clingy, who's a bad kisser, and is self-belittling; someone who gives all his heart from the start without knowing what he's headed for, too serious about life, and awkwardly nice; a boy who does not grow up, only wants to have fun, will go out of his way to make his fun, and is treated as a boy by his family with these reasons so obvious to me, yet he could not see; one who has a self-image problem, and doesn't take enough initiative to change his lifestyle, who loves love too much... the list goes on, and will go on as long as I know who I am and what I want.
But enough with the relationship rant, teeehee.
Some fun things that have happened recently...
1) I wore my giant 6g nose ring to Kula with Phuong, and Sushiboy struck up conversation with me about it, and about his teeny 14g one haha. Phuong left him my number but he was on break, as we saw walking out the place, and didn't get it... THANKFULLY, LISA AND PHUONG WENT TO KULA THE VERY NEXT DAY and Lisa brought me up. He asked for my name and Lisa left him my number again at the table. Too bad I've not heard from him, he seemed cute, although I can't say for sure what he looked like anymore :(
2) I met Jamie last semester, and she's such a cool chick. She invited me to her Thanksgiving kickback, I went by myself and was pretty intimidated at first but ended up making a few friends. I went to lunch with one, DM, and though I thought he was interesting at first I no longer think so. I still owe a lunch date with DB so I will try to carry that out, but I think their lifestyles are real turn-offs. Maybe I'm just not into the richer guys who have free time to do pot. I don't have anything against them for doing it, and hearing them talk about it is interesting somewhat, but that's not what I want for myself..
3) I've been seeing straight-edge instead. I thought the Christmas wrapping was just about the best thing ever. He's definitely getting to me lol.
Work
I'm still working at Walgreens with everyone who originally started at this store. Jeanette was let go some time ago, I'm not sure if this was in the past year. Not a great loss at all, tbh lolol. Losing John was rather unfortunate though. I feel like, with the way I card smokers, I might get caught in their stupid traps too. :/
In addition to Walgreens I also work as a graphic designer! I think this has been the most exciting thing to happen to me in a long long time. It happened so suddenly, too!
Apparently, Chi Ti and Burroughs were having brunch at nearby tables when Burroughs overheard Chi Ti mention that she knows someone who could design her Bicyclist Club's shirts. Burroughs, having been looking for new designers for her small business, came over to the cyclist table and gave Chi Ti her card.
I've been working for her ever since, making whatever small businesses come to her for: business cards, banners, flyers, pamphlets, magnets... I also work on her personal line of pet-themed collectibles. She's a sweet lady, and giving me a raise soon! I'm excited for what 's in store for me =)
School
I didn't do so hot last semester, I got almost all B's save one A and one D!!! It was a Carlos class, sigh. I got an A in enameling though! I thoroughly enjoyed Susanna's class, and hope to take at least one more metals class while I'm still here.
I've decided to go through with the BFA program. I'm gonna work on my portfolio given the chance, and apply for the program hopefully by next year. I hope to graduate in two years, with two degrees. I'm excited and anxious for the future! Teacher? Illustrator? Designer? No one knows.
Memorables
Over the summer I worked with a group of art students and community service volunteers on a mural in Stanton. It was a fairly large wall, standing at 14 feet tall and 60 feet wide. I worked on it with Jake, too, and so his name will be along mine on the wall for as long as the painting stands. It looks adorable, I love the colors and the message. I drew all the people! =)
I've picked up an interest in ceramics and fabrics, LOL. I want yarn now more than ever, and want to learn foreals how to make stuff! I don't really wanna do more ceramics but I keep an eye out for unique ceramic things, like this adorable set of half-cups that form one mug together. It looks like it was made cheap, but I got it at Goodwill for cheap anyway lol, and it's just so adorable!
I love hanging out with Phuong Lisa and Tuan. Of course Tuan is not usually here, so we 3 girls tend to have our own fun most of the time. We all have very different goals for the future and schedules but make it all work to get that coffee and tea, and those damn pastries. 85C adventures, errands, The Office, whatever it may be, I love it all. I love my friends!
I've stopped stretching my lobes for a bit, the cold weather had been really harsh on them. While they heal and stay content at 0g, I've been working on my septum piercing instead. I'm at 4g now, and not looking to stop any time soon. I'd like to reach at least 0g there. I'm contemplating what other piercing to get... but I guess I will know in 2011 8)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Cloudy days
I feel perfectly fine
If I go on with my day,
If the sun is out to shine
On my heart, lonely and grey.
I'm all smiles and laughter,
I'm too busy to notice
And make my day go faster
So my brain won't know this,
But my heart does.
The feeling of missing you
And all in the past that was.
Is this what i wanted to do?
I have to remind myself this,
that I can't let my heart win.
I'm alone because I'm selfish
And want my future to begin.
I'm scared of what could've been
because I don't know anything!
And everything is so uncertain,
I don't know what the future will bring.
All I see is the past,
The mistakes I see everyone make.
And though I wanted us to last,
this chance I just couldn't seem to take.
I'm so sorry for ruining us,
I'm so sorry you are no longer mine!
I can't put away your necklace,
our photos, your face from my mind.
It's not that I wanted somebody else
Or lost interest in our love,
But bad thoughts kept eating at my self
Until they were all I could think of.
You saw a bright future for us.
To me, the light was dimming.
And though I'm such a pessimist,
Of us I just keep dreaming.
Maybe one day we can try again
When we've both had time to grow.
If it was meant to be, then
When we'll meet again, we'll know.
If I go on with my day,
If the sun is out to shine
On my heart, lonely and grey.
I'm all smiles and laughter,
I'm too busy to notice
And make my day go faster
So my brain won't know this,
But my heart does.
The feeling of missing you
And all in the past that was.
Is this what i wanted to do?
I have to remind myself this,
that I can't let my heart win.
I'm alone because I'm selfish
And want my future to begin.
I'm scared of what could've been
because I don't know anything!
And everything is so uncertain,
I don't know what the future will bring.
All I see is the past,
The mistakes I see everyone make.
And though I wanted us to last,
this chance I just couldn't seem to take.
I'm so sorry for ruining us,
I'm so sorry you are no longer mine!
I can't put away your necklace,
our photos, your face from my mind.
It's not that I wanted somebody else
Or lost interest in our love,
But bad thoughts kept eating at my self
Until they were all I could think of.
You saw a bright future for us.
To me, the light was dimming.
And though I'm such a pessimist,
Of us I just keep dreaming.
Maybe one day we can try again
When we've both had time to grow.
If it was meant to be, then
When we'll meet again, we'll know.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
vacashit
I try to make you happy, you try to make up happy. We both end up sad as fuck.
I did say I want to spend more time with you during your Aug vacation since we didn't spend much time/ no time during your July vacation.
I said it because I love you and owed you at least that much.
But still, shit, I need fucking days to myself. Yeah, even if they ARE on your vacation. I just want to spend one of the last two days of your vaca together and have one for myself so I can tend to other people and things in my life. I obviously don't do work when I'm with you. Shit.
But no. You'd rather assume I don't want to spend either day with you. YOU change the plans. YOU say what you really want, your first choice. Your second choice.
I can't do your first choice so I choose to do your second choice but you won't have it.
And now you change your mind.
Fuck fuckey fuck fuckety fucky fuck.
I said I'd spend more time with you this break so I took off the entire fucking week off work! So there are no unnecessary distractions! You don't think I need the money? FUCK.
But you were so down and depressed last month that we didn't go anywhere so what choice do I have? Don't I have to be a good girlfriend and do at least this much for you????
SO I DO!!!
I DOOOO!!
I do, yet here we are again. Not satisfied with half a week. Wants the whole fucking week. Whoop dee fucking deedooddaaaa I don't HAVE the whole fucking week JUST FOR YOU. I'M SORRY. FUCK.
I don't even wanna go out anymore.
I just want to be a hermit.
I just want to be myself, BY myself, alone.
Love is complicated, and I don't like it.
I did say I want to spend more time with you during your Aug vacation since we didn't spend much time/ no time during your July vacation.
I said it because I love you and owed you at least that much.
But still, shit, I need fucking days to myself. Yeah, even if they ARE on your vacation. I just want to spend one of the last two days of your vaca together and have one for myself so I can tend to other people and things in my life. I obviously don't do work when I'm with you. Shit.
But no. You'd rather assume I don't want to spend either day with you. YOU change the plans. YOU say what you really want, your first choice. Your second choice.
I can't do your first choice so I choose to do your second choice but you won't have it.
And now you change your mind.
Fuck fuckey fuck fuckety fucky fuck.
I said I'd spend more time with you this break so I took off the entire fucking week off work! So there are no unnecessary distractions! You don't think I need the money? FUCK.
But you were so down and depressed last month that we didn't go anywhere so what choice do I have? Don't I have to be a good girlfriend and do at least this much for you????
SO I DO!!!
I DOOOO!!
I do, yet here we are again. Not satisfied with half a week. Wants the whole fucking week. Whoop dee fucking deedooddaaaa I don't HAVE the whole fucking week JUST FOR YOU. I'M SORRY. FUCK.
I don't even wanna go out anymore.
I just want to be a hermit.
I just want to be myself, BY myself, alone.
Love is complicated, and I don't like it.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Kayak!
Jake and I went kayaking yesterday, it was so much fun! It was my first and his second time... yet somehow I end up in front =( lol the water was really cold whenever it splashed (which became often, as the breeze blew stronger and stronger and AGAINST US!), but eventually I got so used to it that it was almost warm... lol. We were out there on the water for an hour and 15 mins, incredible! A very fun experience for $20. Thanks hon! I had a blast <3!! Lol but you knew that already... ;P
We were so sore and tired that it was soooper nice to chill on the sand. We brought along a ton of snacks: chips, strawberries, apples, oranges, pretzel sticks, strawberry lemonade, water, chex mix, etc etc... Sunbathed and relaxed under the sun, in the breeze. It was a perfect day! We stayed until around 3 and went back to his place for a movie. Daybreakers, it was weird and gross and scary as fuck, and nasty. =(
We ended the day with some Yoshinoya for dinner. It had been a long time since we last ate there so it was perrrffecct! =)
We were so sore and tired that it was soooper nice to chill on the sand. We brought along a ton of snacks: chips, strawberries, apples, oranges, pretzel sticks, strawberry lemonade, water, chex mix, etc etc... Sunbathed and relaxed under the sun, in the breeze. It was a perfect day! We stayed until around 3 and went back to his place for a movie. Daybreakers, it was weird and gross and scary as fuck, and nasty. =(
We ended the day with some Yoshinoya for dinner. It had been a long time since we last ate there so it was perrrffecct! =)
Saturday, May 22, 2010
lalalove
It had been really tough, especially because of finals. Well actually, it was ALL BECAUSE OF FINALS! We had so many little disagreements that escalated to arguments, it was exhausting for the both of us. Finally, we were able to spend a good solid amount of time together yesterday, and it made all the difference. I'm so in love! We figured, neither of us are very good at handling stress lol. In fact, we suck at it. But I guess now that we know it for sure, and if we keep it in the back of our minds when we have problems, then we'll also subconsciously know that it's only temporary and will pass, and we'll be better soon. I'm so glad we're better now.
We had so much time on our hands that we didn't pay attention to it so much, and time just slipped by so quickly with all the good times! We had some fun, went to Island's and pigged out (can you imagine us at the bar, with 5 platters of food? Sliders, fries, quesadillas, nachos, chicken strips, ...LOL), went to the mall, got some cheap goods, went back for some lovely music and fun fun, then finally went to see Ironman II! I have mixed feelings about it, I don't really like the main character, he's kind of an ass lol but I guess people like that. We watched it in IMAX, but only for $14 for the both of us. Hehe ;)!
I'm so excited for tomorrow. It's going to be a beach playday! I'm sooo excited, maybe I'll get brown again like how I used to be. Maybe then I can match his filipinoness. <3
We had so much time on our hands that we didn't pay attention to it so much, and time just slipped by so quickly with all the good times! We had some fun, went to Island's and pigged out (can you imagine us at the bar, with 5 platters of food? Sliders, fries, quesadillas, nachos, chicken strips, ...LOL), went to the mall, got some cheap goods, went back for some lovely music and fun fun, then finally went to see Ironman II! I have mixed feelings about it, I don't really like the main character, he's kind of an ass lol but I guess people like that. We watched it in IMAX, but only for $14 for the both of us. Hehe ;)!
I'm so excited for tomorrow. It's going to be a beach playday! I'm sooo excited, maybe I'll get brown again like how I used to be. Maybe then I can match his filipinoness. <3
Friday, April 9, 2010
soulbff
(6:09:14 PM) tunanat: *hugs* miss you already
(6:15:00 PM) tunanat: there is no one in this world
(6:15:04 PM) tunanat: that understands my humor like you do
(6:15:12 PM) tunanat: ilu :D
(6:15:35 PM) tunanat: if i said "I gloowwed like a bitchhhh" to someone else
(6:15:44 PM) tunanat: i would get a totally diff response
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(10:50:12 PM) BOMmie : I LOVE YOU IN ALMOST EVERY SINGLE WAY
(10:50:25 PM) BOMmie : YOU'RE MY BFF YOU'RE MY BRO YOU'RE MY HOMIE YOURE MY PET
(10:50:25 PM) tunanat: hahah u make me feel fuzzy inside
(10:50:41 PM) tunanat: like the sock i just pulled out between the towel, so much static!
(10:50:51 PM) BOMmie : nice
(6:15:00 PM) tunanat: there is no one in this world
(6:15:04 PM) tunanat: that understands my humor like you do
(6:15:12 PM) tunanat: ilu :D
(6:15:35 PM) tunanat: if i said "I gloowwed like a bitchhhh" to someone else
(6:15:44 PM) tunanat: i would get a totally diff response
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(10:50:12 PM) BOMmie : I LOVE YOU IN ALMOST EVERY SINGLE WAY
(10:50:25 PM) BOMmie : YOU'RE MY BFF YOU'RE MY BRO YOU'RE MY HOMIE YOURE MY PET
(10:50:25 PM) tunanat: hahah u make me feel fuzzy inside
(10:50:41 PM) tunanat: like the sock i just pulled out between the towel, so much static!
(10:50:51 PM) BOMmie : nice
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Greek is my savior
I know it's lame, but this show gives me so much insight into... well, a lot of things. Most of all, of course, is relationships. Yesterday's episode is especially freaky. It brought up a lot of good questions and a lot of good points about how relationships work out, for short term or the long haul.
Casey is ready to graduate and go on to law school, grow up and move on with her life beyond college. Cappie is not, he just wants to stay in college until he's ready to leave the party life.
This is how they were brought up: Casey's are "regular" people, who mentally grow up and work and live according to social standards. Cappie's are unconventional hippies, they didn't marry, they traveled a lot, and believe education is lifelong so he should stay as long as he wants, because he has the money to anyway.
The two love each other, though, so how can they work it out? Casey keeps thinking of the future, and how it doesn't seem possible if they are on such different tracks. Cappie doesn't want to worry about that, and just live in the moment, and worry about graduation when it comes. "We'll worry about it then," he keeps saying.
And then someone said something that really hit me. Some loves aren't meant to last forever. Some loves are short love stories, but love stories nonetheless. In the end, Casey accepts that she and Cappie love each other and work well together, but only in college. Their love story is a short one. Once college is over, so are they.
Where does that leave me?
It makes me wonder, did I end things too hastily, worrying about the future when the present isn't even certain? This uncertainty is what kills me. Our relationship was the kind that was serious, the kind you'd consider for the rest of your life. I didn't know if I was ready for that, especially at 20 and with both of our futures so unsure. I didn't want to do him wrong but in the end, did I anyway? Should I have let our relationship go on, as long as we're happy, until we're no longer? And not worry so much about the future? Should I have let it be a short love story, if it was one, hoping it could develop into a long love story? I feel like I threw out something good before its expiration date, when I don't even know what that date is, or if it exists. What have I done...
Sunday, March 7, 2010
A very personal post.
We're usually happy when we are together, whether with other people or by ourselves. If a problem arises, it quickly gets solved. We're just very happy when we're together... but not so much when we are separated.
The truth is we just can't and won't see eye to eye. In order to do so would mean changing ourselves for the other person, doing what we don't want to do in order to please the other. I think that could be okay when it comes to habit-breaking, but this isn't a habit to me. It's just how we are as humans; it's how we show our love for a person. If someone had to change themselves and limit their love or show more than they want to, they aren't as happy as they would otherwise be.
I'm really happy when I'm with you, but it's the moments when I'm not that really count. Those times are what tell me whether we will work or not. There are a lot of jumbling thoughts in my head and I'm trying to put them all down in writing but it's hard and brain racking. Yesterday's talk really got me thinking, especially because you challenged me to end it. I almost did, then and there. I didn't act irrationally though, I wanted to think about it first. I thought it about it on and off the whole day, and all the pros and cons of our relationship, and things like that. It hurt but it's true, as true as I see it in my eyes.
Besides the fact that we will never agree on what's too much/ enough of each other when we are not together, there were some other important things to consider.
I don't like cigarettes. I have never liked them in my life. Sometimes, they look good on a person, and I admire the entire image... from a distance. It's also one of those things that somehow made you look good and confident, even though I hate them, I began to like you. Not because of them, but they did add to your image. I ignored my hatred for them, because I couldn't smell them on you or taste it or even see it. There was one time you decided to smoke after we had lunch and I was just waiting for you while you did... I didn't like it. But I just took it as it was. Then after that I rarely ever got hints of it from you anymore, so it bothered me less and less... but once in a while it would rise up as a problem for me because I'm not that amazing at hiding how I feel about things. You said you want to try to quit, and I know you can go for several days without them but the truth is I don't think you could ever quit. It's what you do when your friends are over, it's part of how you socialize with them. It's like how you quit drinking and drank coke when your buddies would drink alcohol, but how can you replace a cigarette? You can't. It's now become a part of your life, a part you can't let go of, for understandable reasons. But just because I can understand why doesn't mean I should be happy or tolerable of it. I'm sorry I can't be more accepting.
But that, that's a habit. Of course in every relationship, one person's habits are going to irritate the other person and vice versa, it's just how it is. These people can either learn to cope with it or to not, and leave. In my case, I did decide to cope with it. I did, just like I know you had to cope with my bad habits. So really, this isn't the big problem, but it is a small one that just adds to it.
The big problem goes back to the beginning of what I've been trying to say. We just don't see love the same way. And it's not fair for you to be the one who loves me more than I love you. When you said that yesterday, so strongly like it was fact, I believed you. I thought damn, he's right. Looking at things, he does love me much more than I love him. Or, at the very least, he shows love more than I show it to him. Is that fair? Even if you say it doesn't matter to you, you accept it? It's not fair, because that just means there is someone out there who can bestow their love on you as much as you would on them.
The most thought provoking thing you said last night though was, "If you don't love me anymore then why don't you just end it?"
I didn't know what to say to that. I really almost did. If any words had come out of my mouth at that moment, they would've been, "Fine, then it's over." But I knew better and kept my mouth shut. I needed to think about this and process what this meant.
Never had you ever challenged me with such a question, such as I have never you. So why did you say it? I wondered about this for the longest time. All it means to me is you're not happy, but you're only now finally showing it. You're not happy with how I'm so aloof and don't seem to care about us, even though in my own way I do. You don't think I care because I didn't call you soon enough, when only about an hour passed between the time when I got home and the time you called me angrily. An hour after work for me to relax and spend time by myself and do whatever I want to do. An hour I really need and want, as a person, for myself. Sometimes I just don't want to talk. Sometimes, a simple goodnight is enough. That though, would never be enough for you. We just don't agree.
So what do we do now? Where do we go from here? It seems like every time we advance and move on from this problem, we take a step back down within a few days. We can't seem to move past it, we can't seem to advance. Are we just going in circles now?
I care for you. I meant it when I said I love you. I do love you. I also wonder though, if love is really enough.
My parents love each other. I don't think that's enough.
The way they grew up determines how well they get along. The families they grew up with, the things they were taught, the things they did or didn't do.
I see now that upbringing is so, so important. I can't overlook it, as much as I want to believe I can and that it shouldn't matter so much, only the present does... but that's not true. Your past determines your present, and ultimately your future. Lately, I have not been able to see a future with you anymore. Not one without the same fights my parents have. Not one without the same ordeals my mom goes through every day, because even though dad calls home out of caring, it gets too much for my mom. My dad cares more than my mom. It doesn't work out well, I don't like what I'm seeing.
I know we've barely had any fights, which is good... so why now? And why with so much impact that it makes me reconsider everything we've been through? The thing is, this isn't some little thing. It's a very big deal. It's very important in deciding if we are compatible. It's not some little bickering over habit-related problems that are much easier to deal with and solve. I don't think this is solvable.
I don't know what else to say. I don't think there is much left to say except I'm sorry that this happened, but I'm not sorry that we happened. I never fell for anyone so fast and so hard as for you. I knew you were the one I could trust with my body and mind and heart, someone I could trust with the entirety of me as a person and a lover and a friend. I wasn't wrong about that. I don't regret it one bit. I do believe now though that we fell into a relationship much too fast, before we could truly get to know each other beyond the "I like you because you're funny and sweet." It was a whirlwind romance, one that romantic movies live off of... but in real life, it doesn't work that way.
I tried to organize my thoughts and feelings but I don't think I did a very good job. I repeated things several times, and some things I wanted to bring up I can't remember right now. I did my best.
We're usually happy when we are together, whether with other people or by ourselves. If a problem arises, it quickly gets solved. We're just very happy when we're together... but not so much when we are separated.
The truth is we just can't and won't see eye to eye. In order to do so would mean changing ourselves for the other person, doing what we don't want to do in order to please the other. I think that could be okay when it comes to habit-breaking, but this isn't a habit to me. It's just how we are as humans; it's how we show our love for a person. If someone had to change themselves and limit their love or show more than they want to, they aren't as happy as they would otherwise be.
I'm really happy when I'm with you, but it's the moments when I'm not that really count. Those times are what tell me whether we will work or not. There are a lot of jumbling thoughts in my head and I'm trying to put them all down in writing but it's hard and brain racking. Yesterday's talk really got me thinking, especially because you challenged me to end it. I almost did, then and there. I didn't act irrationally though, I wanted to think about it first. I thought it about it on and off the whole day, and all the pros and cons of our relationship, and things like that. It hurt but it's true, as true as I see it in my eyes.
Besides the fact that we will never agree on what's too much/ enough of each other when we are not together, there were some other important things to consider.
I don't like cigarettes. I have never liked them in my life. Sometimes, they look good on a person, and I admire the entire image... from a distance. It's also one of those things that somehow made you look good and confident, even though I hate them, I began to like you. Not because of them, but they did add to your image. I ignored my hatred for them, because I couldn't smell them on you or taste it or even see it. There was one time you decided to smoke after we had lunch and I was just waiting for you while you did... I didn't like it. But I just took it as it was. Then after that I rarely ever got hints of it from you anymore, so it bothered me less and less... but once in a while it would rise up as a problem for me because I'm not that amazing at hiding how I feel about things. You said you want to try to quit, and I know you can go for several days without them but the truth is I don't think you could ever quit. It's what you do when your friends are over, it's part of how you socialize with them. It's like how you quit drinking and drank coke when your buddies would drink alcohol, but how can you replace a cigarette? You can't. It's now become a part of your life, a part you can't let go of, for understandable reasons. But just because I can understand why doesn't mean I should be happy or tolerable of it. I'm sorry I can't be more accepting.
But that, that's a habit. Of course in every relationship, one person's habits are going to irritate the other person and vice versa, it's just how it is. These people can either learn to cope with it or to not, and leave. In my case, I did decide to cope with it. I did, just like I know you had to cope with my bad habits. So really, this isn't the big problem, but it is a small one that just adds to it.
The big problem goes back to the beginning of what I've been trying to say. We just don't see love the same way. And it's not fair for you to be the one who loves me more than I love you. When you said that yesterday, so strongly like it was fact, I believed you. I thought damn, he's right. Looking at things, he does love me much more than I love him. Or, at the very least, he shows love more than I show it to him. Is that fair? Even if you say it doesn't matter to you, you accept it? It's not fair, because that just means there is someone out there who can bestow their love on you as much as you would on them.
The most thought provoking thing you said last night though was, "If you don't love me anymore then why don't you just end it?"
I didn't know what to say to that. I really almost did. If any words had come out of my mouth at that moment, they would've been, "Fine, then it's over." But I knew better and kept my mouth shut. I needed to think about this and process what this meant.
Never had you ever challenged me with such a question, such as I have never you. So why did you say it? I wondered about this for the longest time. All it means to me is you're not happy, but you're only now finally showing it. You're not happy with how I'm so aloof and don't seem to care about us, even though in my own way I do. You don't think I care because I didn't call you soon enough, when only about an hour passed between the time when I got home and the time you called me angrily. An hour after work for me to relax and spend time by myself and do whatever I want to do. An hour I really need and want, as a person, for myself. Sometimes I just don't want to talk. Sometimes, a simple goodnight is enough. That though, would never be enough for you. We just don't agree.
So what do we do now? Where do we go from here? It seems like every time we advance and move on from this problem, we take a step back down within a few days. We can't seem to move past it, we can't seem to advance. Are we just going in circles now?
I care for you. I meant it when I said I love you. I do love you. I also wonder though, if love is really enough.
My parents love each other. I don't think that's enough.
The way they grew up determines how well they get along. The families they grew up with, the things they were taught, the things they did or didn't do.
I see now that upbringing is so, so important. I can't overlook it, as much as I want to believe I can and that it shouldn't matter so much, only the present does... but that's not true. Your past determines your present, and ultimately your future. Lately, I have not been able to see a future with you anymore. Not one without the same fights my parents have. Not one without the same ordeals my mom goes through every day, because even though dad calls home out of caring, it gets too much for my mom. My dad cares more than my mom. It doesn't work out well, I don't like what I'm seeing.
I know we've barely had any fights, which is good... so why now? And why with so much impact that it makes me reconsider everything we've been through? The thing is, this isn't some little thing. It's a very big deal. It's very important in deciding if we are compatible. It's not some little bickering over habit-related problems that are much easier to deal with and solve. I don't think this is solvable.
I don't know what else to say. I don't think there is much left to say except I'm sorry that this happened, but I'm not sorry that we happened. I never fell for anyone so fast and so hard as for you. I knew you were the one I could trust with my body and mind and heart, someone I could trust with the entirety of me as a person and a lover and a friend. I wasn't wrong about that. I don't regret it one bit. I do believe now though that we fell into a relationship much too fast, before we could truly get to know each other beyond the "I like you because you're funny and sweet." It was a whirlwind romance, one that romantic movies live off of... but in real life, it doesn't work that way.
I tried to organize my thoughts and feelings but I don't think I did a very good job. I repeated things several times, and some things I wanted to bring up I can't remember right now. I did my best.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
On School, Love, Friends, Work
School
All final grades are posted; I got straight B's... + 1 A! WOOHOO?
I need to step up my game. I did better than I had feared, but I know I could've done better. I know I could've!
I don't usually get to go on vacation but this winter break, it's on! Hooray for the traveling Tran sisters, roundtripping from LB > Boston > NY > Boston > Spain > France > (European train trip!) > France > Boston > home =)
I will miss everyone. I will miss Jake dearly. He's been with me for what feels for so long I don't really remember the single days, haha. And honestly, for the first time in a long time (in a relationship), I don't miss those days. I'm happy where I am, with whom I am with.
Love
You know hon, things have been so so very good with us I just can't imagine why it would ever go bad. It's a very optimistic view, I know, but isn't that a good thing? Isn't that how it should be, to be hopeful for us, whether we are in a good or bad situation? Always have heart and always have hope for love to grow. I like where we are heading, I love the way it feels.
Friends
I love my friends =) the ones that I have held onto for the past several years.
Phuong, you're so funny and natural, and gross because you're too natural sometimes, but we get along amazing, bff. Thank you for the very thoughtful gift. I now know what it's like to get a tattoo you don't like and have it stay on forever. But hey, it finally washed off!
Tuan, you are my bff artsy fartsy buddy and I love you for it! Thank you for the very heartfelt card. I think this is the first time I've gotten you nothing. I will make up for it promise!
Lisa, you're as natural as Phuong, I love that about you girls. You're easy-going and hilarious and thoughtful. Thanks for sharing your pass with me whenever you could, I really appreciate it. Must get you something in return.
Anthony, I haven't seen as much of you lately as I have had in the past, but we're still good buddies and I love that. Sometimes I wish things were like how they used to be, but as for yourself, please don't ever change.
Rosie, we haven't hung out much more either... =( I often think about those times, those very hilarious nights out we had so many of, to drown our boyfriend-less lonelinesses. But look what happened! We are both taken now, and taken away from each other. Hopefully we will get to hang out more, cos I wanna go back to Mochilato this summer!
Annelee, you're too cool for me. And things have been very rough for you lately, I hope 2010 brings sunnier days. Things are looking good right? I mean, I get the feeling that you don't believe you can get whatever cutie you want but lookie loo, you're getting all kinds of cuties wanting to call you up and go out with you, and you're turning them down. HAHA. I'll be seeing you soon roomie!
I've made a few friends here and there and I think the newest person I think I could have a good solid friendship with would be Ichi-Noodles. We'll see though, I guess!
Work
The workplace just hasn't been as pleasant as it used to be when it first opened, or when Ethan was around. Kassem is hated, everyone wants everyone else to call the hotline so that he can get transfered outta here. GET OUTTA HEA! People are jealous of others because of favoritism; this person is getting more hours, this person is more privileged because of such and such, blah blah blah. GET OVER IT! Improve yourself, maybe you will get those privileges.
Customers give me headaches, what with all the coupon-system-cheating and whatnot. SIGH. Please, just get your item and go! No, I will not ring you up at my counter because Register1 told you you've reached the item limit. GO HOME! GO! HOOOMEE!
I'm gonna go to France soon, I'm so excited,... but for now, I'm going to bed. Goodnight, world.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
The Holidays
It's been great; the sun is out (now), the lights are up (the neighbors'), everyone's busy and bustling (putting up the tree today, on the Eve).
I spent almost a whole day with Jake yesterday, from morning to night.=) It started out rocky and unhappy, but as always, we work it out. We get over our problem and everything is great. So for lunch we went to get fish and chip's at H. Salt's! It was delicious. It makes me hunger for the cole slaw at that one place Anne Lee took me to in SD though. That shit was the bomb. TIN FISH! Tin Fish Gaslamp, there you go! MMMM
We tried to eat light and split a meal so that we might have room for a buffet later at night!
We hopped in the car and he said, "Honey can you open the glove compartment for me?"
So I popped it open and POOF there was a little green box with a red bow. Awwww! Except that it wasn't green, stupid yellow lighting, it was blue, ... Tiffany Blue! I was so excited and jumping around and we were both rushing and excited and we got there and, he forgot his wallet. OFF HOME WE GO! WEEE! got your wallet? BACK TO THE RESTAU WE GO! WEEE!
He took us to Hokkaido, a chinese(?) buffet. Biggest buffet I've ever been to. The tables of food were snaking around! I loved it. The food was amazing, the cutie sitting across me was amazing, the little box I opened was amazing, and the gift he got me is amazing. I'm wearing it everyday. EV. RIE. DAE.
Merry Christmas, AJF
I spent almost a whole day with Jake yesterday, from morning to night.=) It started out rocky and unhappy, but as always, we work it out. We get over our problem and everything is great. So for lunch we went to get fish and chip's at H. Salt's! It was delicious. It makes me hunger for the cole slaw at that one place Anne Lee took me to in SD though. That shit was the bomb. TIN FISH! Tin Fish Gaslamp, there you go! MMMM
We tried to eat light and split a meal so that we might have room for a buffet later at night!
We hopped in the car and he said, "Honey can you open the glove compartment for me?"
So I popped it open and POOF there was a little green box with a red bow. Awwww! Except that it wasn't green, stupid yellow lighting, it was blue, ... Tiffany Blue! I was so excited and jumping around and we were both rushing and excited and we got there and, he forgot his wallet. OFF HOME WE GO! WEEE! got your wallet? BACK TO THE RESTAU WE GO! WEEE!
He took us to Hokkaido, a chinese(?) buffet. Biggest buffet I've ever been to. The tables of food were snaking around! I loved it. The food was amazing, the cutie sitting across me was amazing, the little box I opened was amazing, and the gift he got me is amazing. I'm wearing it everyday. EV. RIE. DAE.
Merry Christmas, AJF
ily <3
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Grove, LA.
Jake took me there yesterday and it looked lovely. We arrived pretty early, so we caught the 5:00PM showing of Ninja Assassin. I could tell from the trailers that it was a bloody movie, but the blood and gore and dismemberment of limbs blew me away... and backed me up into my seat. and into Jake's arm. Which I was holding onto for dear life HAHA.
Afterwards we took a little walk and had some fresh air. It wasn't all that cold, even though it was snowing! =) Snowing little puffs of foam, lol.
It was pretty crowded so we decided to go TGIF back in LB. Yummy yum yum! P:
We didn't have much time left over afterwards but just enough to enjoy ourselves before I had to go home. Such a good day, hon =) Thank you for a wonderful date =)
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Today is Thanksgiving. What are you thankful for?
Family, friends, special person of mine, school, opportunities to be professional, learning new skills, a new work environment I actually like, ...
Speaking of which, I went out and blew a ton of money at Walgreens again. I think I spent like $100 there in the past week. IT'S CRAZY! It's like, I fucking work there for a day for free! At least at Big5 I was never interested enough in spending on anything... But make-up? Yummy smelling lotion? Candies? Junk-I-don't-need-but-it's-cheap? ARGH WALGREENS!! <3
On another noteOMG I'M FUCKING EXCITED FOR ALL MY JEWELRY TO COME HOME!!!
Anatometal gem eyelets, Tawapa flourish, gold eyelets, heart cut out eyelets, ETC ETC I'M EXCITED AS SHIT! AND IT AIN'T EVEN CHRISTMAS YET, HAPPY THANKSGIVING 'ERRBODY ROUND THE WORLD (US only)!
Afterwards we took a little walk and had some fresh air. It wasn't all that cold, even though it was snowing! =) Snowing little puffs of foam, lol.
It was pretty crowded so we decided to go TGIF back in LB. Yummy yum yum! P:
We didn't have much time left over afterwards but just enough to enjoy ourselves before I had to go home. Such a good day, hon =) Thank you for a wonderful date =)
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Today is Thanksgiving. What are you thankful for?
Family, friends, special person of mine, school, opportunities to be professional, learning new skills, a new work environment I actually like, ...
Speaking of which, I went out and blew a ton of money at Walgreens again. I think I spent like $100 there in the past week. IT'S CRAZY! It's like, I fucking work there for a day for free! At least at Big5 I was never interested enough in spending on anything... But make-up? Yummy smelling lotion? Candies? Junk-I-don't-need-but-it's-cheap? ARGH WALGREENS!! <3
On another noteOMG I'M FUCKING EXCITED FOR ALL MY JEWELRY TO COME HOME!!!
Anatometal gem eyelets, Tawapa flourish, gold eyelets, heart cut out eyelets, ETC ETC I'M EXCITED AS SHIT! AND IT AIN'T EVEN CHRISTMAS YET, HAPPY THANKSGIVING 'ERRBODY ROUND THE WORLD (US only)!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
"I feel like I'm dancing on the air"
After class, Jake picked me up to go eat. We were gonna eat at Deli News but his friends called and we went to Chili's at the Pike. The food was good, and the bill was cheap, until Jake asked for it to be combined and it turns out it wasn't split at all, the waitress forgot to add the 2nd couple's meal to it lollolol. Poor Jake *pat pat*
So, I got to meet and hang out with his buddies JR & Anna. AND THEIR BABY JARED! sososossoo cute.
They're easy to get along with and talk to. I usually have more trouble meeting people's friends. so yay
Afterwards, they dropped us back at Jake's and he and I just karaoke'd for a good long time. "Serenade me," he said. Hahahah.
Our voices gave out (mine did, anyway... and my ears), we were tired, we went to bed.
A lot of things were shared and talked about and though I can't seem to say it anymore at this time, I don't take back what I've already said.
I said it to A.C. and didn't believe myself and knew it was a mistake and I said it because he did.
I couldn't, didn't want to, and believed I'd never say it to A.A. because I knew I'd never feel that way for him.
In my dreams, I can fly
I can swim in the sky
I feel like I'm dancing on the air
To the music everywhere
Because you love me, yes you love me
In my dreams, in my dreams.
--Walter Meego - In My Dreams
So, I got to meet and hang out with his buddies JR & Anna. AND THEIR BABY JARED! sososossoo cute.
They're easy to get along with and talk to. I usually have more trouble meeting people's friends. so yay
Afterwards, they dropped us back at Jake's and he and I just karaoke'd for a good long time. "Serenade me," he said. Hahahah.
Our voices gave out (mine did, anyway... and my ears), we were tired, we went to bed.
A lot of things were shared and talked about and though I can't seem to say it anymore at this time, I don't take back what I've already said.
I said it to A.C. and didn't believe myself and knew it was a mistake and I said it because he did.
I couldn't, didn't want to, and believed I'd never say it to A.A. because I knew I'd never feel that way for him.
In my dreams, I can fly
I can swim in the sky
I feel like I'm dancing on the air
To the music everywhere
Because you love me, yes you love me
In my dreams, in my dreams.
--Walter Meego - In My Dreams
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
JF
so lately, I've been talking and spending time with Jake, but mostly during breaks at work. In a few days or a week or whatever we've become pretty comfortable around each other. Definitely more so than this time last week... haha.
It's a cute story (to me), how we met. I'm gonna miss working with him, a bit... lol.
He took me to school so I could make it on time to pay tuition after work. Then we went grocery shopping and stopped by Annelee's. Hung out and had dinner, it was a nice night =)
I feel like he's a keeper, but I guess we'll have to see.
I still have that fear inside me. I fear I can't do it.
If I screw up, he would be a great loss.. =(
It's a cute story (to me), how we met. I'm gonna miss working with him, a bit... lol.
He took me to school so I could make it on time to pay tuition after work. Then we went grocery shopping and stopped by Annelee's. Hung out and had dinner, it was a nice night =)
I feel like he's a keeper, but I guess we'll have to see.
I still have that fear inside me. I fear I can't do it.
If I screw up, he would be a great loss.. =(
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