Oct 15th - new (twin) piercings. Jill @ Somatic
Oct 17th - filed for graduation (!!)
Low ass balance in checking, but I haven't been pulling from savings, thanks to odd-jobs. I think I will do o-k when I step out into adult life, if this doesn't already count yet ;)
fre(elance)ing, pottery with kids, nancy work...
keeps me afloat!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
blink 182 concert
October 1st was the first time I had ever gone to a concert, and a Blink one at that! I'm satisfied, I don't desire to see any other shows. I wouldn't mind going, and would enjoy them, but I'd die happy I at least saw Blink.
I got a tour shirt too, thanks to bf =)
I'm feeling down. it's from a lot of things.
i don't know if it'll last, maybe i need someone mature and stable. soon i'll be coming into stability and need my partner to be the same. soon enough i'll be 23. i had always planned on having kids around 25, i'm scared now that i've fallen off that pathway. when will i be completely happy with who i have?
I got a tour shirt too, thanks to bf =)
I'm feeling down. it's from a lot of things.
i don't know if it'll last, maybe i need someone mature and stable. soon i'll be coming into stability and need my partner to be the same. soon enough i'll be 23. i had always planned on having kids around 25, i'm scared now that i've fallen off that pathway. when will i be completely happy with who i have?
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
time and change
A year is a short amount of time...
So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.
On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...
But so much can happen in a year, you know.
I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.
I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.
A year is a long time.
So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.
On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...
But so much can happen in a year, you know.
I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.
I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.
A year is a long time.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
fall '11
At the beginning of college, I was determined to graduate in Spring '11. Well, that didn't happen.
In my last post, I told myself I'd go out and find another job. I inquired about a couple, but didn't even bother to apply. I told myself I'd take a 6th class, but seeing as how it costs another couple hundred at GWC and needs to be petitioned for at CSU I backed out of that as well.
I don't do much, do I?
What I'm gonna do now is write a list of achievable goals and reason it out as to why it's achievable. I always reason out why I shouldn't do things, it's always very convincing. I need to convince myself that there are things I can do.
School--
I only have 5 classes, same load as usual. This should not be hard. And I don't have work this semester besides Nancy's, so I should do excellent. Last semester I took 4 classes and got straight B's, I'll blame that on having to do work. So this semester I should get at least a couple of A's! I SHOULD, I WILL. Yes, Anatomy for the Artist will be a tough course, but without work in the way it should be cake. Remember that you actually paid $3,000 for 5 classes this semester... That's $600 a class. Do I really want to get a B or C in a $600 class?? NO
Work--
Without Walgreens in the way, I should get more work for Nancy done now. She pays more! Just be good, so you can rack up more hours! I need them, I'm short something like $700 for tuition next semester. And with my big $150 splurge on the table, $175 on vacation, and something like $100 in gifts for the coming birthdays (Russ, Anne, Ldo, Bananas, Tuna...) I better get papur.
Home--
Keep my room tidy. I've been doing an o-k job of leaving space =) Still got a lot of bric-a-brac around but that can be remedied. Just gotta force myself to put it away.
Self--
Work out at school, I paid for it.. :(
Keep track of your diet, don't let school hours get in the way. Don't snack so much either.
--Thanks, Belly.
In my last post, I told myself I'd go out and find another job. I inquired about a couple, but didn't even bother to apply. I told myself I'd take a 6th class, but seeing as how it costs another couple hundred at GWC and needs to be petitioned for at CSU I backed out of that as well.
I don't do much, do I?
What I'm gonna do now is write a list of achievable goals and reason it out as to why it's achievable. I always reason out why I shouldn't do things, it's always very convincing. I need to convince myself that there are things I can do.
School--
I only have 5 classes, same load as usual. This should not be hard. And I don't have work this semester besides Nancy's, so I should do excellent. Last semester I took 4 classes and got straight B's, I'll blame that on having to do work. So this semester I should get at least a couple of A's! I SHOULD, I WILL. Yes, Anatomy for the Artist will be a tough course, but without work in the way it should be cake. Remember that you actually paid $3,000 for 5 classes this semester... That's $600 a class. Do I really want to get a B or C in a $600 class?? NO
Work--
Without Walgreens in the way, I should get more work for Nancy done now. She pays more! Just be good, so you can rack up more hours! I need them, I'm short something like $700 for tuition next semester. And with my big $150 splurge on the table, $175 on vacation, and something like $100 in gifts for the coming birthdays (Russ, Anne, Ldo, Bananas, Tuna...) I better get papur.
Home--
Keep my room tidy. I've been doing an o-k job of leaving space =) Still got a lot of bric-a-brac around but that can be remedied. Just gotta force myself to put it away.
Self--
Work out at school, I paid for it.. :(
Keep track of your diet, don't let school hours get in the way. Don't snack so much either.
--Thanks, Belly.
Friday, July 1, 2011
begin again
I got fired last week and at first I took it pretty badly. I stomped out of there in a huff, haha. But I kept thinking about how I had been working retail for four years now, and that it's good it came to an end. I always told myself to start looking for career-related work but never got around to it until now, really. I just applied for a couple of temporary positions in the HB district/ library, hopefully I 'll get a position. If not, I'll continue looking for other higher paying jobs like bank teller. I already applied to a couple of banks too. If I can just make a couple of applications a night, I would be good. job and scholarship applications...
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