hello single ladies...

I'm walking this Spring, finally. And my birthday is in 5 days!
I'll be turning 23.
Nobody likes you when you're 23, as the song goes. So Russell left.

Fuck it, I'm gonna have a good fucking time. Moving on, moving on. April will be a good month because I'm going to make it so.

We've many years ahead to fall in line, why would you wish that on me? I never wanna act my age.
What's my age again?

I think I did pretty well this fall semester! Granted, I didn't have work to go to so that's how it should be. 3 A's and 2 B's, woohoo! I'm sad I couldn't have turned my Art Hist B into an A for once, jUST ONCE! I was sooo close this time. Karen Kleinfelder is the best at what she does.

Russell's parents got me a stocking chock full of goodies :3 they're so cute. And he got me blackberry fruits taped to a box! He's so silly. I love it.

I am running out of money so  I should probably devise that plan soon. I have a partner, I have motivation. I just need a push in that direction!

a hapa... maybe one day

neuneu

Oct 15th - new (twin) piercings. Jill @  Somatic
Oct 17th - filed for graduation (!!)

Low ass balance in checking, but I haven't been pulling from savings, thanks to odd-jobs. I think I will do o-k when I step out into adult life, if this doesn't already count yet ;)

fre(elance)ing, pottery with kids, nancy work...
keeps me afloat!

blink 182 concert

October 1st was the first time I had ever gone to a concert, and a Blink one at that! I'm satisfied, I don't desire to see any other shows. I wouldn't mind going, and would enjoy them, but I'd die happy I at least saw Blink.

I got a tour shirt too, thanks to bf =)


I'm feeling down. it's from a lot of things.
i don't know if it'll last, maybe i need someone mature and stable. soon i'll be coming into stability and need my partner to be the same. soon enough i'll be 23. i had always planned on having kids around 25, i'm scared now that i've fallen off that pathway. when will i be completely happy with who i have?

time and change

A year is a short amount of time...

So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.

On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...

But so much can happen in a year, you know.

I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.

I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.

A year is a long time.