tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38046562667471355042024-03-18T21:35:26.329-07:00the bombbunny's tracksAnh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.comBlogger62125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-10471980221852917552012-04-09T00:53:00.000-07:002012-04-09T00:53:33.726-07:00hello single ladies...I'm walking this Spring, finally. And my birthday is in 5 days!<br />
I'll be turning 23.<br />
Nobody likes you when you're 23, as the song goes. So Russell left.<br />
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Fuck it, I'm gonna have a good fucking time. Moving on, moving on. April will be a good month because I'm going to make it so.<br />
<br />
<i>We've many years ahead to fall in line, why would you wish that on me? I never wanna act my age.</i><br />
<i>What's my age again?</i><br />
<i><br />
</i>Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-64292096057797278302011-12-27T12:01:00.000-08:002011-12-27T12:01:12.266-08:00I think I did pretty well this fall semester! Granted, I didn't have work to go to so that's how it should be. 3 A's and 2 B's, woohoo! I'm sad I couldn't have turned my Art Hist B into an A for once, jUST ONCE! I was sooo close this time. Karen Kleinfelder is the best at what she does.<br />
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Russell's parents got me a stocking chock full of goodies :3 they're so cute. And he got me blackberry fruits taped to a box! He's so silly. I love it.<br />
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I am running out of money so I should probably devise that plan soon. I have a partner, I have motivation. I just need a push in that direction!<br />
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a hapa... maybe one dayAnh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-33692228797877260152011-10-22T10:03:00.000-07:002011-10-22T10:03:18.042-07:00neuneuOct 15th - new (twin) piercings. Jill @ Somatic<br />
Oct 17th - filed for graduation (!!)<br />
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Low ass balance in checking, but I haven't been pulling from savings, thanks to odd-jobs. I think I will do o-k when I step out into adult life, if this doesn't already count yet ;)<br />
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fre(elance)ing, pottery with kids, nancy work...<br />
keeps me afloat!Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-12436212449541066222011-10-10T22:59:00.000-07:002011-10-10T22:59:04.018-07:00blink 182 concertOctober 1st was the first time I had ever gone to a concert, and a Blink one at that! I'm satisfied, I don't desire to see any other shows. I wouldn't mind going, and would enjoy them, but I'd die happy I at least saw Blink.<br />
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I got a tour shirt too, thanks to bf =)<br />
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I'm feeling down. it's from a lot of things.<br />
i don't know if it'll last, maybe i need someone mature and stable. soon i'll be coming into stability and need my partner to be the same. soon enough i'll be 23. i had always planned on having kids around 25, i'm scared now that i've fallen off that pathway. when will i be completely happy with who i have?Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-12562562953000498792011-09-07T00:20:00.000-07:002011-09-07T00:20:44.057-07:00time and changeA year is a short amount of time...<br />
<br />
So much happens in so little time, but you seldom realize it because it happens so slowly that you don't feel it. Then something reminds you, shocks you a little maybe, and you remember.<br />
<br />
On Facebook there's a little section in a side panel that shows you old status updates you or someone else made 365 days ago. I glanced over at it tonight and on this same day last year, I wrote " I love my boyfriend :) "<br />
I clicked on it curiously, wondering why I said such a thing to the world of Facebook. I still don't remember, but it was made out to J.F.<br />
Funny, it's only been a year exactly but if I say these words now, they would be for R.A.<br />
It leaves me wondering, did I mean what I said? Do I mean what I say now? It's only been a year...<br />
<br />
But so much can happen in a year, you know.<br />
<br />
I got over an old lover and "met someone new," although I've known him all along.<br />
We got to know each other, get intimate and comfortable beyond friendship.<br />
Several movie and dinner dates, several nights staring at the stars and talking about the colors in the sunset, a few holidays and birthdays, gift-giving occasions, a wedding, some hiking and a vacation, roller coasters and parties later we're closer than ever.<br />
<br />
I've gotta say that I've never felt this close and comfortable with another lover, nor have I ever felt so cared about and for and thought of so much as by R. Maybe because we based our relationship off of a friendship first? Maybe, probably? Whatever it is, it's working just right. And when I say I love him, I mean it.<br />
<br />
A year is a long time.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-77614573802688410572011-08-28T10:39:00.000-07:002011-08-28T10:39:11.762-07:00fall '11At the beginning of college, I was determined to graduate in Spring '11. Well, that didn't happen.<br />
In my last post, I told myself I'd go out and find another job. I inquired about a couple, but didn't even bother to apply. I told myself I'd take a 6th class, but seeing as how it costs another couple hundred at GWC and needs to be petitioned for at CSU I backed out of that as well.<br />
<br />
I don't do much, do I?<br />
What I'm gonna do now is write a list of achievable goals and reason it out as to why it's achievable. I always reason out why I shouldn't do things, it's always very convincing. I need to convince myself that there are things I <i>can </i>do.<br />
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School--<br />
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I only have 5 classes, same load as usual. This should not be hard. And I don't have work this semester besides Nancy's, so I should do excellent. Last semester I took 4 classes and got straight B's, I'll blame that on having to do work. So this semester I should get at least a couple of A's! I SHOULD, I WILL. Yes, Anatomy for the Artist will be a tough course, but without work in the way it should be cake. Remember that you actually paid $3,000 for 5 classes this semester... That's $600 a class. Do I really want to get a B or C in a $600 class?? NO<br />
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Work--<br />
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Without Walgreens in the way, I should get more work for Nancy done now. She pays more! Just be good, so you can rack up more hours! I need them, I'm short something like $700 for tuition next semester. And with my big $150 splurge on the table, $175 on vacation, and something like $100 in gifts for the coming birthdays (Russ, Anne, Ldo, Bananas, Tuna...) I better get papur.<br />
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Home--<br />
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Keep my room tidy. I've been doing an o-k job of leaving space =) Still got a lot of bric-a-brac around but that can be remedied. Just gotta force myself to put it away.<br />
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Self--<br />
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Work out at school, I paid for it.. :(<br />
Keep track of your diet, don't let school hours get in the way. Don't snack so much either.<br />
--<i>Thanks, Belly.</i>Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-81572753358878157622011-07-01T23:11:00.000-07:002011-07-01T23:11:39.052-07:00begin againI got fired last week and at first I took it pretty badly. I stomped out of there in a huff, haha. But I kept thinking about how I had been working retail for four years now, and that it's good it came to an end. I always told myself to start looking for career-related work but never got around to it until now, really. I just applied for a couple of temporary positions in the HB district/ library, hopefully I 'll get a position. If not, I'll continue looking for other higher paying jobs like bank teller. I already applied to a couple of banks too. If I can just make a couple of applications a night, I would be good. job and scholarship applications...Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-85378775782405049732011-06-22T01:40:00.000-07:002011-06-22T01:40:39.567-07:00sleeplessi'm getting antsy, and i can't sleep.<br />
i feel really broke, it's already end of june, only two months left to make up tuition. what am i doing?<br />
i should turn off my computer now. i should go to bed, there's no one to talk to anyway. wish i had a certain body next to me tonight. wish the mountains had reception! wish i wasn't on constant alert for notifications.<br />
this world, this world we live in, it's not good for us anymore.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-11121718494557626102011-06-13T21:40:00.000-07:002011-06-13T21:40:02.138-07:00Intuos3!My baby Intuos3 has finally come into this world, after much patience and anticipation! And it's just what I wanted! Granted it's second-hand, and I don't know if its previous home treated it well. The pen it came with is a bit nibbled up and the nib itself needs to be replaced, but that's not a hassle! As long as the tablet is not scratched up too much itself, I know it will be fine. Finally, I put my dear Graphire4, which has served me well all these years, to rest.<br />
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May I put you to the best of use, Intuos <3Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-29229828467492020442011-05-14T22:34:00.001-07:002011-05-14T22:34:05.577-07:00duyen is being such a little dickhead i'm really pissed at her! shitheadAnh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-43598041561232034852011-05-08T02:21:00.001-07:002011-05-08T02:21:25.581-07:00i feel drab<br />
i need a change<br />
seeing redAnh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-5858654485727990692011-05-01T01:12:00.000-07:002011-05-01T01:12:15.139-07:00Spring 11The semester is fast ending and I need to get things done! But I'm a dummy and didn't take days off work so now I have to work things out and around each other.<br />
For tomorrow, I mustmustMUST finish the Sentence-Four-Panels! At least, even if it's sloppy! And hopefully even get started on the final project! My-my. Time to plan things out by the hour!<br />
<br />
things to get done:<br />
Illus: 4 panels, final project- 3 cards<br />
Watercolor: 2 paintings<br />
Edss: documents<br />
415: group part, sample projects<br />
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Sunday: all day illustration<br />
Monday: class 9-12, tb-test, gym?, edss300 the rest of the day. sushi dinner perhaps?<br />
Tues: edss300 all day: papers, fotocopies, fix, print, arrange!<br />
Wed: classes until 7, hw: 415- fix LP, 2 pgs of content standards<br />
Thurs: class, gym!, illustration & watercolor<br />
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....well, I'm actually not good at that but hey! I wrote down a few things just now and reminded myself to get that tb shot. Yay needles!<br />
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Here's to hoping I get good grades/ enter the edu program.<br />
As a reward I shall get any of the following!<br />
double tragus, tongue, vch, or navel.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-72247369162374110712011-04-24T22:26:00.000-07:002011-04-24T22:26:26.934-07:00cut the shitApril is almost over, and things are only going to get worse... if you let it.<br />
Time to shape up!<br />
Go run, it'll make you feel better. Just try it. Maybe tomorrow, stay after and run. Or stay and paint.<br />
Paint, paint, paint. Thank god you only have illustration to worry about for a while, and watercolor is all in-class til the finals are due. But don't forget them, they are difficult. And there are two. Give yourself at least two days to do them.<br />
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You don't have time for homework and catching up with EDSS but you're taking naps with R? Don't be stupid. It's time to invest in a good one anyway, this is just pointing you in that direction. Keep dates to weekends only, do work during the week from now on. You have so much to catch up on...<br />
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As a reward, you'll get a new piercing in May. However if you don't pass EDSS you will not. This is final.<br />
<br />
-AnhAnh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-38592376142283413462011-04-17T10:47:00.000-07:002011-04-17T10:47:28.262-07:00twenty-twoI went to school on my birthday, I had no choice =( and ended up staying over an hour after class for my stupid group work stuff. I kinda dilly daddled after that and saw the Illustration Show briefly, then finally walked to my car. I turned the corner and found red carnations and a Happy Birthday balloon on my windshield. <3<br />
<br />
I worked that night even though I had asked for it off! But it was okay because my coworkers wrote me a card and Mona baked me Reese's Fastbreak CUPCAKES! They were delicious. And Rus was working too =)<br />
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In the lunchroom, he gave me a present and a card and said that I could only open one. I asked, between the gift and the card? No, the gift was more than one inside the first wrapping. He said I could only unwrap one today, and another tomorrow, and the last the day after; and that I will be tantalized to open both. So I said "Okay!" and opened the box. The moment I untaped it I saw two smaller boxes inside wrapped as well and I knew I just used one "unwrap permit" today. DANG! This guy's good. I shook the two boxes to guess what was inside and freaked him out. Haha! I guessed it was fragile and therefore must be glass! And kinda big, but flat, because of the box's dimensions. All he said to everything was "maybe!"<br />
That night I read the card and it had some cheesey Hallmark poem, and he wrote, "Happy birthday Anh! Dinner Saturday night?" =)<br />
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The next day I unwrapped one package and found a very familiarly shaped box. I opened it to find (gasp!) an opalite spiral! How! What! Where when why! So this is why I'd be tortured about opening the second box! A pair of opalite spirals, he really knows me!<br />
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Saturday I opened the second box and tried them on. They're just gorgeous. That night, he took me out to dinner at Tantalum and it was very delicious and fancy. Our main dishes were garnered with an orchid flower each, which I proceeded to eat a petal off mine. It was kinda tasty! Haha. He also got me another bouquet of carnations, and his parents gave me a birthday card too! We took a walk after dinner and spent the rest of the night with each other.<br />
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You're amazing.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-38751312793787556342011-03-21T22:55:00.000-07:002011-03-21T22:55:14.790-07:00looping melody<i>I am broken, please don't fix me. all that I am is what you've left of me.</i><br />
oh, George..Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-72544956247654111142011-03-20T19:27:00.000-07:002011-03-20T19:27:51.782-07:00i'm a messstressing out because i can't keep my shit together for art ed. i'm so behind in the paperwork. why do i just go home? why don't i set aside time at school to see the counselors?<br />
and all this time i was telling myself it's because i'm concentrating harder on illustration but let's face it, i'm not. i didn't even submit the portfolio. how is this semester the most overwhelming, when i am only taking 12 units? some kind of anxiety about leaving the school-world? i can't take this.<br />
like my room, so is my self.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-61843160946777382692010-12-31T20:27:00.000-08:002010-12-31T20:27:32.565-08:002010 ReflectionsIt's a Friday night, and New Year's Eve is soon arriving.<br />
I have a couple of hours of stillness before I head out with the work crew to celebrate, let me reflect a little on 2010 and what has come and gone while listening to John Mayer's 'Slow Dancing in a Burning Room.'<br />
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Relationships<br />
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I spent most of 2010 paired with Jake. I don't regret having been with him, and I don't regret having ended it. Every time I leave a relationship I learn a little more about who I am and what I want, what I need from my partner, what I need in the relationship and secured for the future.<br />
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From this relationship, I've learned that getting involved with someone romantically means getting involved with their family as well, it's inevitable. And though my partner's personality or lifestyle may not be totally and completely derived from his family, he will always have been influenced by them somehow. I've also learned that what they do now gives me a pretty good idea of what they will be doing in the future. It's rare for anyone's life to completely change, or even make a good turnaround. Usually, they will just follow the path they've already set for themselves some years ago. I've learned from past relationships that I don't want a partner too attached and clingy, who's a bad kisser, and is self-belittling; someone who gives all his heart from the start without knowing what he's headed for, too serious about life, and awkwardly nice; a boy who does not grow up, only wants to have fun, will go out of his way to make his fun, and is treated as a boy by his family with these reasons so obvious to me, yet he could not see; one who has a self-image problem, and doesn't take enough initiative to change his lifestyle, who loves love too much... the list goes on, and will go on as long as I know who I am and what I want.<br />
<br />
But enough with the relationship rant, teeehee.<br />
Some fun things that have happened recently...<br />
1) I wore my giant 6g nose ring to Kula with Phuong, and Sushiboy struck up conversation with me about it, and about his teeny 14g one haha. Phuong left him my number but he was on break, as we saw walking out the place, and didn't get it... THANKFULLY, LISA AND PHUONG WENT TO KULA THE VERY NEXT DAY and Lisa brought me up. He asked for my name and Lisa left him my number again at the table. Too bad I've not heard from him, he seemed cute, although I can't say for sure what he looked like anymore :(<br />
2) I met Jamie last semester, and she's such a cool chick. She invited me to her Thanksgiving kickback, I went by myself and was pretty intimidated at first but ended up making a few friends. I went to lunch with one, DM, and though I thought he was interesting at first I no longer think so. I still owe a lunch date with DB so I will try to carry that out, but I think their lifestyles are real turn-offs. Maybe I'm just not into the richer guys who have free time to do pot. I don't have anything against them for doing it, and hearing them talk about it is interesting somewhat, but that's not what I want for myself..<br />
3) I've been seeing straight-edge instead. I thought the Christmas wrapping was just about the best thing ever. He's definitely getting to me lol.<br />
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Work<br />
<br />
I'm still working at Walgreens with everyone who originally started at this store. Jeanette was let go some time ago, I'm not sure if this was in the past year. Not a great loss at all, tbh lolol. Losing John was rather unfortunate though. I feel like, with the way I card smokers, I might get caught in their stupid traps too. :/<br />
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In addition to Walgreens I also work as a graphic designer! I think this has been the most exciting thing to happen to me in a long long time. It happened so suddenly, too!<br />
Apparently, Chi Ti and Burroughs were having brunch at nearby tables when Burroughs overheard Chi Ti mention that she knows someone who could design her Bicyclist Club's shirts. Burroughs, having been looking for new designers for her small business, came over to the cyclist table and gave Chi Ti her card.<br />
I've been working for her ever since, making whatever small businesses come to her for: business cards, banners, flyers, pamphlets, magnets... I also work on her personal line of pet-themed collectibles. She's a sweet lady, and giving me a raise soon! I'm excited for what 's in store for me =)<br />
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School<br />
<br />
I didn't do so hot last semester, I got almost all B's save one A and one D!!! It was a Carlos class, sigh. I got an A in enameling though! I thoroughly enjoyed Susanna's class, and hope to take at least one more metals class while I'm still here.<br />
I've decided to go through with the BFA program. I'm gonna work on my portfolio given the chance, and apply for the program hopefully by next year. I hope to graduate in two years, with two degrees. I'm excited and anxious for the future! Teacher? Illustrator? Designer? No one knows.<br />
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Memorables<br />
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Over the summer I worked with a group of art students and community service volunteers on a mural in Stanton. It was a fairly large wall, standing at 14 feet tall and 60 feet wide. I worked on it with Jake, too, and so his name will be along mine on the wall for as long as the painting stands. It looks adorable, I love the colors and the message. I drew all the people! =)<br />
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I've picked up an interest in ceramics and fabrics, LOL. I want yarn now more than ever, and want to learn foreals how to make stuff! I don't really wanna do more ceramics but I keep an eye out for unique ceramic things, like this adorable set of half-cups that form one mug together. It looks like it was made cheap, but I got it at Goodwill for cheap anyway lol, and it's just so adorable!<br />
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I love hanging out with Phuong Lisa and Tuan. Of course Tuan is not usually here, so we 3 girls tend to have our own fun most of the time. We all have very different goals for the future and schedules but make it all work to get that coffee and tea, and those damn pastries. 85C adventures, errands, The Office, whatever it may be, I love it all. I love my friends!<br />
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I've stopped stretching my lobes for a bit, the cold weather had been really harsh on them. While they heal and stay content at 0g, I've been working on my septum piercing instead. I'm at 4g now, and not looking to stop any time soon. I'd like to reach at least 0g there. I'm contemplating what other piercing to get... but I guess I will know in 2011 8)Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-73996737903077413652010-11-14T23:36:00.000-08:002010-11-14T23:36:21.870-08:00fuckeeeenng lifeeeHamade's damage is almost $500.<br />
There goes all my fucking money, which doesn't even fucking exist at this time. Not really...<br />
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List of things to add to stress:<br />
412: 6 projects<br />
412: research paper<br />
412: folio<br />
407: 3-6 lesson plans<br />
407: folio<br />
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goddamn, art ed is giving me shit this semester. thank god i only have one more Carlos class, just one more... just one............................... fuck!<br />
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i'm behind in ceramics by one entire project. i guess i'll just have to stay extra extra days for the final project now. i still need to stay on track for enameling. buddhism, i don't even know... pulled a move on the midterm so we'll see. yoga can touch my toes and kiss em.<br />
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on top of all this i still have work1 and work2 so yay me, my life, it loves me =( or maybe i hate it and treat it badly.<br />
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on the bright side, i have 35 faces to look forward to every week... but only for one more week. and then i won't see them (hopefully i'll get to!) until december. oh no :( my kids :( <!--3</p-->Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-77714548601835191692010-11-07T13:56:00.000-08:002010-11-07T13:56:37.078-08:00text from Tuan"You are an amazing Adeline, the only one that exists. I love you very much. I hope you have a great day because you deserve it everyday. You have more strength and courage than you can imagine!"<br />
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<br />
ily my friend =)<br />
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Lisa's birthday dinner was last night, and it was full of laughter. I hadn't seen most of those girls since high school but I think I'm much better now at small conversation and just making conversation, in general. A few drinks help.<br />
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For Phuong's birthday, we went to Universal Horror Nights. It was great fun, I had never been! I got scared good, MANY times. Lol I loved it, I'd go again. Horror movies are blah, eh, but living the horror is fantastic and hilarious =)<br />
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Tuan's birthday has passed as well but we won't get to celebrate until thursday. I'm not entirely sure what we will be doing but as always in the past, even when we do nothing, it is a good day =) But since we will all be in SD and 21, the night should be interesting!<br />
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I love my friends so much. They inspire me, and improve me.<br />
They let me be me. I'll save this for Thanksgiving post though =)Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-80056928863846347552010-11-03T21:02:00.000-07:002010-11-03T21:02:36.094-07:005 dayswhat now?<br />
what do i do, i don't know.<br />
i just wanna sit and do nothing. there is nothing to do.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-1551355781570593462010-10-31T23:28:00.000-07:002010-10-31T23:28:25.069-07:00heavyMisery loves company. I'm thankful I can talk to Anthony; strange that we are in the same boat. It helps to know someone going through a similar situation, it's a lot easier to talk to them over others who aren't in such a situation.<div><br />
</div><div>I found some comfort in simply watching TV with Phuong, if only for a short while. Soon, it was time to go. When I left, I felt this heavy emptiness. Apparently, emptiness in the heart defies the law of gravity. It feels like a heavy burden, but hollow and large. I doubt that could conjure up an image of what I felt but these are the words that describe it.<div><br />
</div><div>There is no one to look forward to talking to after getting home. </div></div><div>There is no one to call and ask about their day.</div><div>I'm alone. Be careful what you wish for.</div><div><br />
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</div><div>I think I will start blogging regularly again, it helps me get my feelings out without having to talk to someone. </div><div><br />
</div><div>So sorry it's over</div><div>There's so much more that I wanted and</div><div>There's so much more that I needed and</div><div>Time keeps moving on and on and on</div><div>Soon we'll all be gone.</div>Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-40839849860127783882010-10-31T15:07:00.000-07:002010-10-31T15:07:17.553-07:00Cloudy daysI feel perfectly fine<br />
If I go on with my day,<br />
If the sun is out to shine<br />
On my heart, lonely and grey.<br />
<br />
I'm all smiles and laughter,<br />
I'm too busy to notice<br />
And make my day go faster<br />
So my brain won't know this,<br />
<br />
But my heart does.<br />
The feeling of missing you<br />
And all in the past that was.<br />
Is this what i wanted to do?<br />
<br />
I have to remind myself this,<br />
that I can't let my heart win.<br />
I'm alone because I'm selfish<br />
And want my future to begin.<br />
<br />
I'm scared of what could've been<br />
because I don't know anything!<br />
And everything is so uncertain,<br />
I don't know what the future will bring.<br />
<br />
All I see is the past,<br />
The mistakes I see everyone make.<br />
And though I wanted us to last,<br />
this chance I just couldn't seem to take.<br />
<br />
I'm so sorry for ruining us,<br />
I'm so sorry you are no longer mine!<br />
I can't put away your necklace,<br />
our photos, your face from my mind.<br />
<br />
It's not that I wanted somebody else<br />
Or lost interest in our love,<br />
But bad thoughts kept eating at my self<br />
Until they were all I could think of.<br />
<br />
You saw a bright future for us.<br />
To me, the light was dimming.<br />
And though I'm such a pessimist,<br />
Of us I just keep dreaming.<br />
<br />
Maybe one day we can try again<br />
When we've both had time to grow.<br />
If it was meant to be, then<br />
When we'll meet again, we'll know.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-54341509348683044252010-08-17T11:35:00.000-07:002010-08-17T11:35:26.065-07:00vacashit I try to make you happy, you try to make up happy. We both end up sad as fuck.<br />
I did say I want to spend more time with you during your Aug vacation since we didn't spend much time/ no time during your July vacation.<br />
I said it because I love you and owed you at least that much.<br />
But still, shit, I need fucking days to myself. Yeah, even if they ARE on your vacation. I just want to spend one of the last two days of your vaca together and have one for myself so I can tend to other people and things in my life. I obviously don't do work when I'm with you. Shit.<br />
But no. You'd rather assume I don't want to spend either day with you. YOU change the plans. YOU say what you really want, your first choice. Your second choice.<br />
I can't do your first choice so I choose to do your second choice but you won't have it.<br />
And now you change your mind.<br />
Fuck fuckey fuck fuckety fucky fuck.<br />
<br />
I said I'd spend more time with you this break so I took off the entire fucking week off work! So there are no unnecessary distractions! You don't think I need the money? FUCK.<br />
But you were so down and depressed last month that we didn't go anywhere so what choice do I have? Don't I have to be a good girlfriend and do at least this much for you????<br />
SO I DO!!!<br />
I DOOOO!!<br />
I do, yet here we are again. Not satisfied with half a week. Wants the whole fucking week. Whoop dee fucking deedooddaaaa I don't HAVE the whole fucking week JUST FOR YOU. I'M SORRY. FUCK.<br />
<br />
I don't even wanna go out anymore.<br />
I just want to be a hermit.<br />
I just want to be myself, BY myself, alone.<br />
<br />
Love is complicated, and I don't like it.Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-3206802798766668832010-08-05T23:25:00.000-07:002010-08-05T23:25:54.132-07:00l'amour<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;">trop dificil pour moi. je comprend rien. </span></span>Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3804656266747135504.post-64604560446904615212010-07-18T23:22:00.000-07:002010-07-18T23:22:29.905-07:00vague updateThis is what I get for not updating. Now, I can't remember things in correct order... I'm just gonna recall things as best as I can. =(<br />
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Jake and I really jumped at the opportunity to spend more time together for the summer and took advantage of it early on. We went to San Pedro, Malibu, (both days were chilly! pooey),... here there and everywhere =) He got me a new bathingsuit, it's such a happy color lol. Yellow/white striped with hot pink accents! We watch a lot of movies and eat just about everything lol. I'ts great.<br />
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Co Be and Ong Ba Ngoai came over for a couple of weeks or so, I was either working or with Jake most of the time, but did take off for a few days to hang out with family. We went to Nevada and Arizona for 3 days on a Chinese tour bus. Fobnesss..... But it was fun, and loud, and confusing. We were the only non-Chinese people on the bus lol.<br />
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Las Vegas is shit, I don't like it that much. The heat is too intense, the people just make it worse. The lights and sights are great and all but I enjoyed Arizona so much more than Nevada. We stayed at Hualapai Ranch, so cute and quaint! We had a nice home-style meal and then roasted marshmallows and made s'mores after dinner. CUTE?? yea!<br />
Before dinner though, we went to the Grand Canyon and waited for the sunset. It hit the horizon perfectly, so beautiful =)<br />
They woke us up at 5 AM to watch the sunrise, and it was quite a sight. I've never stayed for both a sunset AND sunrise hehehe, it's amazing.<br />
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Besides trips here and there I've mostly been working. Chi Ti found me a job working for a graphic designer, she pays me $15/hr, and she's really sweet. I like working for her a lot!<br />
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And I signed up to volunteer work in Stanton on a community project. It's a mural, and it's mostly a group of csulb art students, with some other volunteers. Eventually we hope to bring in the kids to help us, or at least do their hand imprints on the wall haha.<br />
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Vincent might write an article on me for Vien Dong newspaper =)! We'll see I guess!<br />
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There's just so much going on in life, I love it... though the sun doesn't always shine on all situations, it's beaming on my career path. ah...Anh Tranhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06793017544071199922noreply@blogger.com0